The Best Thing I Never Had

Hi,

This week's theme is "Hardest thing I've ever been through". I have quite a number of inappropriate jokes in mind, but I shall keep it to myself.

Nothing really comes to mind when I think of this week's theme. I guess the only thing that I could come up with at the moment was when I was about seven or eight years old. I had just moved from Pasay City to Cavite City and I didn't know anyone in my neighbourhood. Making friends was okay, easy for a kid who grew up in Philippines' little Essex, but the hard part was when I had started going to school.

I went to school with my cousin, who was also my best friend at the time, and she was the only person I knew in that school. It was a pretty small school and everyone knew everyone because it was a small neighbourhood and everyone grew up together. Basically, everyone started going to that school since preschool, so everyone were pretty close with one another, and there I was. This city kid, getting thrown into the deep end of a "provincial" city.

It was hard, I think, because I was the "ugly" cousin. I was the fat, unsporty, untalented, lazy, stupid cousin. despite the fact that I'm almost two years ahead of everyone else, I was still regarded as less smart than my cousin. Then I got thrown in with her group of friends, and we'd always be compared with each other, and I'll always be on the bad side. "Why don't you make friends with other people", you ask. Well, I can't. There are no "other people" since our school really is THAT small.

Don't get me wrong. I don't blame her for what I went through during that time. I am very proud of her and what she has accomplished, and I still love her to bits. I guess it was just really annoying and sad that I had to grow up being connected and compared to this other person, not being able to make my own name.

I hope this makes sense.

In other news,

I'm flying off for the Philippines on Friday! I'm not really excited, but I'm not exactly dreading it either. I guess it's just a thing that is happening for me. I just hope that I'd be able to get at least a bit of work done while I'm there so I won't drown in homework when I get back.

School's been pretty hectic as usual, especially this week. I've got tonnes of work to do, just for this one module, which is 2D Animation. I actually really enjoy the module, but the thing is, is that it is SUPER time consuming! And it's not something that I can easily do at home, because I need the light box and animation plate, and the Animation room is only open on weekdays 9am-6pm, when there are no classes. Ahhh. Hectic week is very hectic.

Anyway, I hope you all are doing fine! Enjoy Christmas in Singapore.

Muchos love.